jessssica lynn

so i haven’t posted on here for awhile. so time for an update i guess. i haven’t really decided what the hell i have done to deserve all this shit everyone puts me through but it was obviously something terrible because it just keeps coming. i am in a state of confusion at the moment. i don’t know what i am supposed to do. and at the moment i don’t even know what to think. part of me wants to do one thing and the other part of me wants to do another. i have been trying to keep myself busy to keep my mind off of the situation but nothing really seems to help. the only thing i can really do is just wait for him to figure out what he wants and go from there. too bad i’m an impatient person :SS

the secret side of me. i never let you see. 
i keep it caged but i can't control it
so stay away from me. the beast is ugly.
i feel the rage and i just can't hold it
it's scratching on the walls. in the closet, in the halls.
it comes awake and i can't control it
hiding under the bed. in my body, in my head. 
why won't somebody come and save me from this
make it end
i feel it deep within. it's just beneath the skin.
 i must confess that I feel like a monster
i hate what i've become. the nightmare's just begun. 
i must confess that i feel like a monster
i, i feel like a monster 

im slightly annoyed at the moment!! grrr!